Just for today I can accept that I cannot drink or put a drug in me. I am accepting God’s timing and believing that He will give me the desires of my heart. I accept that I can’t always control my circumstances. All I can do is live in God’s will so that my circumstances can get increasingly better. I am exactly where God wants me to be at this season in my life. I can’t worry about tomorrow for tomorrow has its own worries. I am not living in the problem today I am living in the solution. I am accepting other people exactly how they are. I am accepting and coming to terms with the fact that “change” takes some hard work but the good thing is that God is doing even more than I am.
What am I willing to give God?
Right now I am starting to put all my faith in God to pave the way for my future. It is literally taking everything in me to believe that God will come through in all situations. I love the Lord and I know He is faithful but right now I am struggling with being more of a Martha than a Mary. I tend to run around and try to get everything done instead of just sitting at the feet of Jesus. I trust Him fully and I know He is the one who can keep me sober. I have admitted that I am powerless in my addiction but there are still some areas of my life that I seem to want to fix, manage, and control. So I give them all to God, every day!
A grateful Refuge Guest – June 2013