I was reading a book a few months ago about addiction and recovery and the author pointed out that the Latin word for the Holy Spirit and the word for alcohol are the same. In Latin, Holy Spirit is translated as “Spiritus” and alcohol is translated as “spiritum.” The author pointed out that the only way to overcome any sort of addiction was through “Spiritus contra spiritum” – Spirit against spirits. He said that the only way to gain victory over the lowest form of depravity was through the highest form of spiritual expression.
I’ve thought about this a lot and I’ve realized that he’s right. Over the years I’ve lost count of how many detoxes, rehabs, hospitals, and other facilities I’ve been to. I’ve lost count of how many therapists, counselors, psychiatrists, and psychologists I’ve seen. I was always looking for a cure for my addictions, and I never found it because one key piece was missing – God.
In the last seven months I’ve tried to stay clean on my own – white knuckles and all – and I’ve tried to stay clean with God’s help. The second option is a lot easier. Some things are bigger than me (as much as I hate to admit it) and my addiction is one of those things. If I could stay away from drugs on my own, I probably would have done it a long time ago. The truth of the matter is though, that on my own I am powerless to resist my urges to use, but when I’m willing to accept God’s help I can stay clean. I’ve spent a long time looking for a cure and never realized that the cure was right in front of my face the whole time.
Written by: Refuge Resident Kristen