"Patient endurance is what you need now..."

Hebrews 10:36 “Patient endurance is what you need now, so that you will continue to do God's will. Then you will receive all that he has promised.” As I continue my training in the physical being, God can’t help but show me things that I have been missing spiritually. One of the things I have discovered as of late, is my great eagerness to do the right thing... once I figure out what that actually is lol. I seem to sprint off in the right direction, almost immediately upon revelation. The problem that has arose on many occasions, is I exhaust easily, give up and end up having to start over again. As I’m training for this half-marathon I am really noticing my short supply of endurance. I am great at starting things, but the second it gets tough, I easily want to change directions, or stop all together. As I hit mile four in my run walk, thats right run walk! I was done, I don’t enjoy this run any more, I have no desire to complete this goal. I am happy to accept what my body has given me. Than I looked up, and behold right in front of me is an elyptical. My muscles and joints leapt at the thought of getting some relief. On the elyptical was a half marathon and 10k training option! I chose the 10k this time, and once completed, my muscles were happy to give me another mile walk run. I was able to complete 11 miles of distance, just by switching gears. I have two weeks left before the race, and I think instead of throwing in the towel, I’m just going to lighten the mode so I might be able to finish a little stronger at the race. I can’t tell you how many times in my walk with God, I have exhausted myself by trying to do all things at once. Than when feeling like I had nothing left to give, I resorted to old thinking patterns, that in time could lead to self-destruction. Now God is showing me balance. When pains are revealed, I don’t have to stop, but instead slow down, lighten the expectation and allow my spiritual muscles to mature, so then I might complete the race called life in a pleasing manner to my Lord. I’m so grateful God doesn’t expect as much from me as I do, he just wants me to balance so I might persevere the trials that will be used to refine my character to be more like the God who created me. I am also grateful to the Refuge For Women, because they have helped me step up the pace when it was time to get to another layer, but they have also guided me to slow down and let the healing happen. This is probably one of the first times I actually have endured a program. I didn’t test out, skip any steps,etc... A year is a year, and each season is purposeful! I will complete this race (both 1/2 marathon and Refuge), and Praise be to God, I won’t be wounded in the process. Instead, I will be stronger and more refined as a result of maturing in both endurance and balance. Proverbs 11:1 “A false balance is an abomination to the Lord, but a just weight is his delight.”

Written by:  Refuge resident Deanna