Satisfaction

Psalm 90:14  “ Satisfy us in the morning, with your steadfast love, that we may rejoice and be glad all our days”

 

The word satisfaction has been racing through my heart and mind rampantly. The idea of an all consuming pleasure, that comes from the fulfillment of one’s wishes, expectations or needs, thrills my very soul! How great it is to have a God who can meet my every expectation! I never really knew how content I could be, in just waking up each morning, and lying down each night with His all consuming presence. I am so grateful that I can boldly approach His throne with this prayer/plea for Him to satisfy me completely. The Lord knows if He doesn’t, I am left to seek out self derived, fleeting, counterfeit solutions… that leave me depleted beyond despair.

 

At what point did we stop going to God for our satisfaction? When did the love of our Lord, who went to Hell and back for us, stop being enough? Were we ever taught that His love satisfies? Even if we were taught truth, and a moral way to live, did we miss the love covers all part? Tim Keller states “ Love without truth is sentimentality; it supports and affirms us, but keeps us in denial about our flaws. Truth without love is harshness; it gives us information, but in such a way that we cannot really hear it. God’s saving love in Christ, however, is marked by both radical truthfulness about who we are, and yet also radical, unconditional commitment to us.”

 

If He created us, don’t you think He can fulfill us? He gave us amazing desires, and in their proper order, they enable us to reach a deeper level of fulfillment, not because of what we feel in the flesh… but because of the closer connection we have with the Spirit as a result! Each day I am intentional about what or Who I take delight in. My joy comes from Him, and it is my Joy in the Lord that provides me with the strength I need, to crucify the desires of the flesh.

 

How many times have I begun to surrender in the Spirit, and then try to perfect myself in the flesh! I do not need to perfect the flesh, in hopes to put out it’s hunger… no, no I need to starve the flesh, satisfy the Spirit, and the hunger pains grow quieter. My goal each day is to fulfill the Living Hunger inside, remembering it is no longer I who lives, but He who lives in me. The more I feed Him, the more He takes over my wants and my will. I know that what I feasted on yesterday will not be enough to satisfy me this new day.

 

I must continue to consume the same truths that freed me in the first place. He knew I would consistently need a fresh supply of daily bread, but I must take it, or I will starve and be left so hungry that anything that can temporarily fill me up, looks like a good option. I can’t tell you how many times I have found myself in the food pantry, snacking on everything, leaving dissatisfied because I never filled myself with what my body, (or emotions), needed and truly was craving in the first place. On that note, I also must be diligent in detoxing from any counterfeit “nutrients”, that has me thinking I am satiated, leaving no room for the real thing!

 

Truth: I cannot deliver myself from the hungers of the flesh and frankly I have stopped trying! I no longer manage my strongholds. I devote my time and energy to enmesh myself with the One who demolishes them. I hold fast to being satisfied in the presence of His love, and as a result I am delivered and protected! The very power that hovered over the Earth, to create it’s existence, is the same power that reigns in me! I have a choice to lean into self, or into that power. Today I choose Power. I choose Truth. I choose Love. I choose this day to walk by the Spirit!

 

“But I say, walk by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the flesh” Galatians 5:1

 

Written by Deanna, A Grateful Refuge Graduate